Monday, December 7, 2009

3 years

Today is the three year anniversary of my mother's death. Most of my siblings who live here in Utah got together at my dad's house, and we spent family time putting up this.

I decided to make this post from my dad's computer so I could find some pictures of my mom to post, so you all could see what a beautiful mother I have.

That sweet old lady in the chair? That's my grandmother, my mom's mom. She's the sauciest old lady you'll ever meet...pretty sure I made up the worst sauciest. Seriously, one time while I was visiting I was walking ahead of her and happened to display my uncoordinated abilities as I tripped on the sidewalk, from behind she yelled "Grace!"
Something interesting that we have noticed over the years is that it's hard to find a picture of my mom where she isn't surrounded by her family, by those she loved most. She was always serving and passing on her knowledge to those around her. I think that's kind of neat, to always surround yourself with those you love. In a lot of her pictures she is serving people or teaching people. I guess that's pretty the mark of a pretty selfless person when it even shows through in your pictures.

The last picture was taken just over three years ago, in-between Christmas and Thanksgiving we always make my grandmother's secret potato doughnut recipie. The picture is of my mother teaching my nephew Jefferson to roll out the dough. Kind of funny, her smile in it makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time.

I am so thankful to my mother and to the people around me who have supported me the last three years. I am so greatful that I have a great mother in law who can help out in those only a mother can do ways. I am grateful for my faith, and the strength of the spirit which allows me to feel her sometimes. It's really nice when you can see the blessings that come out of tragedies. If you look the miracles will always outweigh the sadness.
In the past three years I have learned to celebrate and be thankful for life instead of mourn the past, because I'm lucky to just be here. And really, I have had a day full of blessings, I got my Christmas bonus today, and it's double what I thought it was going to be, so thank you work. Also, Hal got into the accelerated winter class that he couldn't get into on Friday, which is awesome and will make his next semester a lot easier. So all in all, I'd say I'm a pretty lucky gal.


20 Something said...

You are seriously amazing. You have overcome things that are unimaginable to me. I cannot thank you enough for your example and all the comments you leave on my blog. They help me deal with things in different ways then I normally would. Thank you!!

Selma said...

Love all your pictures. Your strength and optimism are amazing and so inspiring. :) My best friend lost her mom when she was 16. So, I can only imagine. Especially during this time of year it is tough, but it is a wonderful thing you did with your family to honor her and celebrate your love for her! And yes, congrats on your bonus, that is a wonderful thing! And same for Hal and his class.:D You are definitely a lucky gal! :D

Anonymous said...

oh sam, i can't even imagine how hard that must have been. i am so sorry. this post almost had me in tears. you are such a strong person, and so inspiring. i am sure your mom is so proud of you. she seems like such an amazing person. i love all these pictures of her. anyway, thanks for sharing this. you are amazing!

oh, and congrats on the bonus! that is awesome!!

You're much more than beautiful said...

I love that last picture of your mom with Jefferson. She is so happy. :)

Kristin said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I bet your Mom is looking down, smiling and enjoying your lovely tribute!

Jillian said...

Goodness, I remember that day, I found out just before I had to go into work. That was a hard day. It's strange I was kind of thinking about her a couple of days ago. I remember she was just the sweetest happiest woman. I always called her my second mommy. I love ya Sam!

Cristyannie said...

Sam. this post was so touching. Your mom sounds amazing. I imagine that you are a lot like her.

Your grandma sounds like my grandma. How funny!

Elizabeth said...

You write so beautifully about your mother. My mother died five years ago, so I know that spending time with your siblings is very important. Love to you.

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