Can you believe it?! We're down to less than 10 day until we're back together. I can't believe it. I can't stinking believe it. Guys, I get to actually live with my husband again.
I saw some Peace Corps friends this weekend and they asked me what I learned about myself during this whole process of living apart from my husband. I guess I hadn't really thought about it before, but it seemed like my answer was an important one.
I learned that I can take care of myself.
I went from living with my parents straight to getting married and living with Hal. My entire life I have had someone around to help take care of me, or help me out when I needed it.
For the first time in my life I didn't really have anyone I could rely on that wasn't thousands of miles away. Of course I had people I could ask for help, and lots of fabulous people invited me to dinners, and to hang out, and pick me up and take me to the airport, but as I explained it to Hal, for the first time in my life, I didn't have someone who loved me unconditionally, that I could talk to about anything; that wasn't 2,000 miles away.
It wasn't easy by any means. There were times that I was desperately lonely. There were times that I felt I had no one to really talk to. There were days where the only living thing I talked to was my cat. There were days that I didn't leave the house because I was just plain sad.
It has been a hard 3 1/2 months. But I did it. I took care of myself, and I realized I can take care of myself. I can feed myself. That may seem trivial, but I've always struggled with hypoglycemia and keeping my blood sugar is a good place. So realizing I can completely take care of myself, and eat on a routine, and not go out to eat hardly at all was a really big thing to me.
I guess I've just always thought of myself as lazy and knew that people would help take care of me, but now I know I can not only take care of myself, I can also take are of a cat and two plants at the same time; and I can do it even during some of the saddest days I've ever had. I'm pretty sure that's like super human.
I saw some Peace Corps friends this weekend and they asked me what I learned about myself during this whole process of living apart from my husband. I guess I hadn't really thought about it before, but it seemed like my answer was an important one.
I went from living with my parents straight to getting married and living with Hal. My entire life I have had someone around to help take care of me, or help me out when I needed it.
For the first time in my life I didn't really have anyone I could rely on that wasn't thousands of miles away. Of course I had people I could ask for help, and lots of fabulous people invited me to dinners, and to hang out, and pick me up and take me to the airport, but as I explained it to Hal, for the first time in my life, I didn't have someone who loved me unconditionally, that I could talk to about anything; that wasn't 2,000 miles away.
It has been a hard 3 1/2 months. But I did it. I took care of myself, and I realized I can take care of myself. I can feed myself. That may seem trivial, but I've always struggled with hypoglycemia and keeping my blood sugar is a good place. So realizing I can completely take care of myself, and eat on a routine, and not go out to eat hardly at all was a really big thing to me.
5 comments:
You're SO CLOSE!!! :-) That's beyond fabulous! :-)
Soooo stinking excited for you. So close! :)
Soooo exciting!!
Well that is a good lesson to learn, even if not a particularly fun one to learn at the time!
How exciting! I love the cats facials btw!
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